She Embodies Perfection To Me (I don’t care what they say)

With all of her visible flaws,
She embodies perfection to me -
I don’t care what they say,
I’ll work hard every day,
For a simple smile to come my way -
It lifts me up to see her happy.

And the rain falls down,
When she’s not around.
I don’t know what I’m to do.
My mind is foggy and I can’t think straight,
I don’t know what to do without you now.

Please, stay by my side -
I promise never to hide (away).
Please, just stick with me,
Together we’ll always be free.

You look at me and me at you,
Do you feel the same way I do?
Are you looking at me trying to find a way,
A way to break my heart ever so easily.
Or do you truly feel the way I do?

With all of her visible flaws,
She embodies perfection to me -
And I don’t care what they say,
I’ll work my fingers to the bone,
Just to hear her voice on the other end of that telephone.
I’ll do whatever it takes,
Just to make her see,
She’s the only one for me.

The Leaves Are The Same Color As Your Eyes.

The leaves begin to turn a certain shade of brown,
Breaking from the branch they slowly flutter to the ground.
It hasn’t been the same since you left me sitting here,
I’ve cried all the tears I can and now I’m running dry.
Decided not to disappear, no I won’t run and hide.

I’ll continue on through the seasons,
Drifting through fall until I find my reason -
Another reason to live, another reason to fight,
Up until this day, you were the only thing keeping me alright.

My mind is full of memories of you,
Things I should forget but for some reason; I refuse.

Tell me, where did you go?
Are you thinking of me too?
Probably not. Why would you?

The leaves begin to turn a certain shade of brown,
Breaking from the branch they slowly flutter to the ground.
I continue to sit at your favorite spot in the park,
Hoping, just hoping, maybe you’ll come back around.

The Letter

I just wanted to take the time,
To try and write you this letter -
Although, in person I could probably,
Just maybe, I could explain it better.
It doesn't matter now though,
Things are too complicated for me to save you.
You don't need me to save you,
But I'll do my best to remind you to stay true.
Just be you.

Did you get lost along the way?
Stumble and fall down,
Or just up and turn your back on the whole town.
It doesn't really matter to me, y'know,
Because I'd have done the same thing.
Packed my shit and left town,
I would have done the same thing.

But remember, I'm the only guy that's ever truly cared.
I know you didn't mean those things you said, you were just scared.
Scared to think that maybe I'd not uphold my promise to always be there,
But baby, here I am, here I am, I'm not going anywhere.
So just know, when you come back around, I'll be right here.
We can pick these broken pieces up off the ground.
We can move on and...

I know you don't need superman,
But baby I'm just being me. It's in my nature,
To play the role of savior. Call me your own personal,
I'm your own personal, Jesus. I'll pay for your sins,
I'll take the punishment for you in the end.

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The days seem so long,
When all you do is wrong.
Nothing I ever say can,
Wash away the pasts decay.

Hatred a plenty,
Yet still I feel so empty.
Love is something I long for,
But never will I find it upon this shore.

Her eyes are drawing me closer,
Yet her body is pushing me away.
Her arms are pulling me over,
Yet her words are ending it today.

Why can't she feel like I do?
What can I say to change her mind?
Is it just me or is the sky a darker shade of blue?
Is it just me or do I just long for time?

Her face still haunts my every dream,
She was my never ending sun-beam.
She was my, my, my everything,
But now she, she, she means nothing -
To me.

Oh, how I wish that were true,
How I wish that there was more I could do.
Oh, how I wish I could bring her back to me,
How I wish that I could be the one to set her free.

Incomplete

As I sit here alone, I feel like I'm missing apart of me.
But when I'm with you, I feel like I am whole again.
And it is true what they say, everything is ever changing.
Nothing will stay the same. But the one thing everlasting,
Is the love I feel for you.

F**k the Media

Why has the world become so hollow?
Everyone seems so shallow
Caring more about looks than personality
I hate the images being forced upon society
Fuck this falsified reality

Fuck the world that you’ve created
I don’t need your social acceptance
I’ll go on living hated and jaded

So much has changed, morals have been tossed away
The meaning of true Beauty has faded
And I’ve lost my faith today. No more faith in humanity.
The world is full of fake people, (Robots!)
Told what to believe, Given a meaning of Beauty

Fuck the world that you’ve created
I don’t need your social acceptance
I’ll go on living hated and jaded

How far the world has come,
Just to fall apart, It was doomed from the start
And this is how it’ll always be,
As long as the media rules the world

Fuck the world that you’ve created
I don’t need your social acceptance
I’ll go on living hated and jaded

Gomenasai, Es tut mir leid

How can you remember everything I never said?
Using my thoughts against me, so fucked up.
I knew you were cold, but had no clue your heart was frozen.

I apologized a thousand times,
I'm sorry for everything I never did for you.
What more can I do?
I'll apologize a thousand more,
If that's all I have to do. For you.

How do you get inside my head?
How do you make feel alive, then dead?
You got so much control of me, I'll never be free.

I said I was sorry, I'm so fucking sorry.
I'll say again, in different languages.
Gomenasai, Es tut mir leid...
I'm down on my fucking knees,
Can't you see?

I'm broken down inside, I lay awake every night.
Your face haunts my dreams, I'm haunted by images of that night.
Why'd you have to walk away? I said I was sorry.

I apologized a thousand times,
I'm sorry for everything I never did for you.
What more could I do?
I'd apologize a thousand more,
That's for sure. If it would bring me back to you.

Only In The Movies (Dual Perspective)

You stand across the room,
I stand there staring at you.
Almost as though I were plotting your doom,
But honestly I just wanted to get to next to you.
For a few short minutes I tried,
Thinking of how I was gonna make my move.
Too bad I was too slow and he got to you,
A smile on his face showing his perfect teeth.
Something I surely didn't have,
His tight shirt showed his large biceps.
Again, I was lacking.
To be honest, intelligence is the only thing I'm packing.

Why would anybody choose me over him?
Things like that only happen in the movies.
Don't try and tell me different,
Lies like that are only believed in the movies.

I see your picture in the paper,
You're holding onto him.
It says something about a wedding,
Too bad I can't come.
I know you've sent me an invitation,
But I've got better things to do.
Okay, I'm lying.
I'll just be hanging out at home.
A noose wrapped around my neck,
A final tug just to check.
Tip the chair and watch it fall,
Good-bye to everything, I'm ending it all.

How can I believe things'll get better?
That only happens in the movies.
Don't try and tell me different,
That lie is only believed in the movies.


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I saw you standing across the room,
I tried not to stare at you.
Didn't want to seem like I was crazy,
I waited for you to make your move.
I saw you walking in my direction,
But you didn't make it fast it enough.
Took that as a sign you weren't interested,
So I danced with him.

Why didn't I meet my dream guy?
I guess that only happens in the movies.
Don't try and tell me otherwise,
That lie only gets by in the movies.

I saw your picture in the paper,
The headline said something about suicide.
Why did you have to do it?
You could have just said how you feel.
To be honest, I was waiting,
This entire time for you.
Yes I love him,
But not as much as I - loved you.

Why couldn't things have gotten better?
That only happens in the movies.
Don't try and tell me otherwise,
That lie only gets by in the movies.

Father to His Daughter

An endless dream of wandering,
And I'm left here wondering -
How will I disappear?
Is it going to be just how I fear?
You hate me because I lied,
Daughter, I'm sorry but it's my time.

I can't live forever,
Nobody lives forever.
I told you what you wanted to hear,
Didn't want you to fear.
I'm dying, I'm going away.

I died alone on a Sunday,
I'll rebirth again someday.
You'll see me going away,
You'll hold my hand one last time today.
It's okay if you say you won't miss me,
I don't want you to grieve for me.

Everything

Say don't go,
Grab my hand.
Pull me close,
Kiss me hard.
Don't let go,
I won't let go.

Four letters,
Four simple letters.
These four letters,
Have never felt better.
They mean so little,
They mean so much.
By itself it could be,
Anything -

I love you.
I am in love with you.
You mean everything,
You're my everything.
I want to hold you,
I want to never let go.
You're my everything,
You mean everything.

Walk with me, Talk with me.
Tell me about your day -
I'll tell you all about mine.
I'll hold you close -
Tell you everything'll be fine,
When you're cryin'.

You're the girl of my dreams,
The only one for me.

Am I the guy you've always wished for -
Or do you want something more?

I can be whatever,
Whatever you want from me.
I'll be the guy,
That special guy.
A one of a kind.
Just teach me.

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I stare out the window looking at the world as a prisoner trapped inside a cage. Unsure of what will happen in the coming days, or of the person I will be. I feel alone and afraid, cold and in pain. Nothing I do comes out the way that I had planned. And friendship... love... things that others know, things that others have, they avoid me. Even when I put forth effort, they stay just out of my reach. Forced into the darkness where I now spend my time. Locked inside my own mind, trying to figure out my demons. Trying to find a way to beat them so I can show myself once again in the light. But like I said, nothing I do turns out how I planned.